In
this week’s meditation exercise, we listened to the subtle mind meditation. Again, I had to do the meditation more than
once in order to make it all the way through.
I kept falling asleep during the quiet parts with the waves crashing. Like the loving kindness exercise last week,
this seemed to me to be a bit too long.
However, I did prefer the ideas behind this meditation. Calming the mind seemed to be much easier
than opening to loving kindness. It also
felt more peaceful to me because instead of focusing on the problems of the
people I love, I was able to just push problems and thoughts out of my
head. I think that this practice would
become more of my everyday meditation.
I
have certainly noticed a connection between spiritual wellness and my mental
and physical wellness. For me, I have
gone through a time of tremendous spiritual growth in the past year. Through this, I learned that I was
experiencing control and trust issues. It
was only through growing spiritually that I’ve been able to really tackle this
problem. It was actually one of the most
difficult things that I have ever done, to let go of my control over myself, my
family, and especially my children. I
prayed very hard about this and placed the people that I love in the hands of
God. Since then I have noticed
tremendous amounts of peace. I certainly
have moments of fear and panic, but I am continuously working on laying these
problems at God’s feet and trusting that he will care for us. Before my spiritual growth, I was constantly
depressed and experiencing panic attacks.
I have found that my spiritual wellness has made my depression much more
manageable and I have barely experienced a panic attack in the last 6
months. There is certainly a correlation
between our spiritual, mental, and physical health.
I thought this was a great post this week! I am like you in that I have some trust but mostly control issues which tend to push me to add too much to my plate. Though I was raised in a christian school and household, as I got older I have not necessarily stepped away but more it isn't as prominent in my life as it should be. Though I feel like God is always there with me and has helped me in so many ways and given us the life we have, I could do more and am frustrated by that. It is refreshing to see you write about making these spiritual changes in your life improved your mental health as well. Though we read and learn about this daily, it is always nice to see results first hand with someone. I hope that this is something I can grow with and improve.
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I really enjoyed reading your post this week Sandra. I am on the same page with you about the subtle mind allowing you push things aside or out of your mind. I actually prefer doing this. I also find it difficult to focus on the particular audios as I always feel they are too long and feel anxious to get my laundry list of tasks complete. I think that I have to incorporate these into my day like an appointment for them to be effective for me.
ReplyDeleteSandra,
ReplyDeleteI found something you said very true and honest that most people struggle to hide from those that surround you and yourself. You said something about your fear to lose control of yourself. This is a very scary thing for me too. I do not tell others of my fear concerning my fear of losing control over the situations that involve me. I do appreciate your honesty. Great job
Sandra,
ReplyDeleteI also think that the last two meditations were too long. I also had a hard time concentrating and not letting me thoughts get taken away by the stress from my day. Although, where you found loving kindness to be more difficult, I found the loving kindness exercise to be easier than the subtle mind exercise. Thanks for sharing
~Catherine